So I have been off the map, not consistent, and at an unusual and somewhat unexpected halt in my creative flow for several months now. It's really interesting, when you want to start something that is a passion in your heart and it seems like all sorts of obstacles and arrows are being thrown at you. So I have thrown out to God the question of "why?"........This is a question I ask often, yet I love that God is never caught of guard or offended by my questions. But I think the question should be "what?" instead why. What may God be wanting to show me through these seasonal battles?
I began a job in a position that I told God I would never do, worked it for as long as I could and then was recently let go due to the company eliminating the position I held. It was a gut puncher but God was my provision before this job and He will be my provision after this job. With that being said , I learned how to lean on the Lord, DAILY, learning how to steward my work time and personal time. When working 40 hours and mentally exhausted, regardless of the days tasks, I felt way too drained to even touch something to create.
Through this recent season I learned that creativity is a discipline yet vital to who you are as a person; it inspired and encourages the soul.
Starting a business that contains my heart to encourage and remind others of the creativity within, brings encouragement to me through testimonies of sweet customers. On the other hand due to other life distractions, caused me to compare and believe the lie that maybe I should give up on this.....but then.......I would have a customer order online, a local order place or maybe a friend send a message encouraging me about the business and praying for me! This along with many other sweet happenings has kept me going and gaining wisdom through it all. I believe that with loss, such as my worldly provision, God redeems hope deferred.
"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life." Proverbs 13:12
---------- Let the creativity flow!!! ----------